To Work It Out

I spend ages
Trying to decipher
What he means

Stalking Facebook
Reading through comments,
Wall messages, anything

Trying to work it out.
He doesn't sound alright-
What's going on?

'View All Comments'
Click.
Looooong discussion...

But he doesn't say.
Only dw:
Don't Worry.

So over to the archives-
My journal:
Nothing special happened on that day.

Text messages:
Still no result.
Think, think...

MSN history:
We didn't talk that day.
Think again....

So it must not have anything
To do with me.
I guess that's a good thing.

But wait!
Two days later
I talked to him

On MSN, so the history shows it
I realise what it was
My detective work pays off.

So now I know.
I remember.
I sink.

I realise that must have been the day
He found out he was moving
Away.

But that is only one case.
There have been others.
Searching, looking

To find out lots.
Is what he says to me true?
Should I know anything he's not told me?

But the thing is:
I know it all already.
He's told me before.

But I can't help it
Still looking, checking,
Even for a different perspective.

But at the end of the day,
You have to remember,
There's only so much you're able to find out.

Love from, Me.
xx