What is This? I Don't Exactly Get It..

There's something
I can't exactly
Comprehend.

I'm feeling...
Better.
A little. Just a bit.

Not very much.
But a tiny, little,
Miniscule, bit.

I think
It's maybe cause
I'm starting to finally accept it.

The fact he doesn't want me.
The fact that great thing we had
Is over. For good.

I heard a song.
That song by P!nk -
Long Way To Happy.

It sounds depressing.
Maybe it is,
For those happier than me.

But for me,
I found it
Inspiring.

"It's gonna take a long time to love,
It's gonna take a lot to hold on,
It's gonna be a long way to happy..."

It made me realise something.
That maybe, just maybe,
There might be something at the end.

Something that might
Be worth
Living for.

I don't know, though.
I'm just guessing.
But maybe there is.

The fact that there is
A "long way" to happy,
Apparently,

Implies that
You can get there eventually.
But can I?

There are a few stages to grief.
I'm not sure of all of them,
But I know the first few.

Denial.
Anger.
Depression.

Acceptance.
I realise "losing" someone
You never really had

Isn't exactly grief,
But surely the same principle
Can apply?

Either way,
I think I'm finally starting to enter
The Acceptance stage.

How much better
Will it make me, though?
If at all?

I don't know.
But I do know,
Some people

Go back and forth
Between stages.
What to make of that?

Love from, Me.
xx