Wow.
Just, wow.
The year has gone fast.
Weeks feel slow,
But months have sped.
It's windy outside.
Overcast.
Cold.
My feet are cold.
But I am always cold
These days.
Meant to be doing schoolwork.
Don't particularly
Feel like it.
Home alone:
Mum's at work,
My sister's at school.
It's lonely,
Home alone.
Quiet. Empty.
Heater's on,
But I'm not feeling it.
Forever cold.
Heart of stone?
Skin of marble?
Soul of broken glass.
Carvings in the marble:
"Help"
How long will it stay?
Until it is weathered away
By time. By healing.
By new inscriptions.
I want someone
To love me.
No one does.
It sucks,
Feeling forever unattractive,
Overlooked, rejected.
So what else,
Can I conclude,
Other than,
There must
Be something
Wrong with me.
Perhaps uni,
Next year,
A new start?
I hope so.
It's what I want.
It's what I need.
I thought the same,
At the start of high school.
But it didn't work.
A chance for a new me,
Cause nobody knew me,
But I didn't know how to change me.
I was 12.
I was a geek.
I had no friends.
Forever flitting groups,
Trying to belong.
Never really did.
Not until about
Late year 8.
Finally, friends.
But I don't like me now.
Who would,
If they were me?
Only someone
Stupid.
Very stupid.
I want this change.
Difference this time:
I know how to do it.
Love from, Me.
xx
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