Bloody Friends. And Boys. And Cold.

I just feel
So down.
Especially today.

I hate
My life.
It fucking sucks.

My friend,
Was all like,
"I don't want so-and-so to know."

So you know what she does.
Naturally.
She tells so-and-so.

Who will almost definitely
Tell the other girl
That she didn't want to know.

Cause that's just what so-and-so does.
She's a gossip.
And a bit of a bitch.

My other friend
Found out the other day
About how I took those tablets that time.

I wish I hadn't told her.
I feel like I have nothing
To myself anymore. Almost.

That friend
Told me a secret.
Which changes lots.

Easily the rest of her life.
Possibly the rest of mine.
And others'. But I hope not mine.

And he doesn't like me.
Obviously.
Mum warned me the other night.

"Be aware, I've heard
He's a bit of a playa.
I don't want you to get hurt."

Fuck that.
It's too late to tell me now, mum.
Though I knew that already.

So I just say,
"Why are you telling me?
We are just friends."

Ha. As fucking if.
Lies. I tell lots.
Not that anyone realises.

My little secrets.
Oh well.
Everyone has them.

And to top it all off,
It's fucking freezing today.
It was so hot last week.

It's only the fucking
First day of autumn.
And I wish I wore my scarf.

Fuck this.
At least I'm going to sport tonight.
It saves what little sanity I still have.

Love from, Me.
xx