Now I Have Nothing, Cause It's All Over.

He doesn't like me.
What I see
Is good as proof.

His new MSN name.
Of course, it couldn't possibly
Refer to me.

He never called me that.
He hasn't seen me
In almost two weeks.

Fuck,
It hurts.
Like. Hell.

But he said that
He did!
I guess things change

In the few weeks
Since he said that
To me.

I'm wasting
My fucking time
Wanting him.

Cause
I'm never
Gonna get him.

I never get anything
I want.
Never have.

I go further than
I ever have, with any
Other boy, with him.

Which isn't very far,
Admittedly.
But it means something.

I don't think
He gets that, though.
But why would he?

But all that effort,
All the fun times,
Were in vain.

It's not like they
Ever led to anything
Past what they were.

Holding hands at the movies.
Webcamming over MSN.
Pictures over text messages.

My mum would
Kill me, if she knew
Of those pictures.

But it's over now.
I'm left sad, depressed,
Dead.

I want those times back
So badly. So, so badly.
But they're out of my reach.

Love from, Me.
xx